Title: Losing Control
Author: Riley Hart
Publisher: Self Published
Release Date: February 25th 2015
Page Count: 227
Reviewed by: Ele
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 4 stars out of 5
On the surface, Ben seems to have it all: money, influence, good looks. He smiles and jokes in all the right places, but it’s all a façade. Inside he’s a wreck, and it’s only getting worse. With his Congressman father using Ben’s recent kidnapping for his own political agenda, and Ben still struggling to get over the only guy he’s ever loved, he feels like he’s losing his grip on reality and he’s quickly spiraling out of control.
Then he meets Dante, an enigma of a man with as much self-hatred as Ben has. In Dante, Ben finds what he didn’t know he needed: Dante’s control, his power, is the only thing that clears the fog in Ben’s brain. For the first time in his life, Ben has a lover who just might need Ben as much as Ben needs him. When they’re together, the demons from their pasts don’t lurk so heavily on their shoulders.
But Dante can’t fix him. Not when a memory from Ben’s past is haunting him in ways he doesn’t understand, waiting for him to put together the missing pieces in his head…and what he discovers just might have the power to break him for good.
Warning: light BDSM themes and mentions of abuse.
This is a pretty dark an angsty read, which mostly comes from the emotional demons both characters carry.
Ben is a mess. After the abduction and the realisation he will never be with Tristan, he’s rapidly losing control of himself. He’s depressed, he drinks all the time, he fucks around in clubs every night but nothing seems to help him anymore. He’s losing his grip on reality, having flashbacks of his painfull childhood and hearing his dead sister’s voice. He’s spiraling into self destruction when he meets Dante in one of the clubs he frequents.
Dante has skeletons in his closet as well. I missed Dante’s POV in this book . I never managed to fully connect to his character and he seemed flat, almost one dimentional. We do get some of his thoughts in the bonus chapter and although I was starved for them it felt a little too late.
Ben and Dante form a wierd and unhealthy relationship. Dante hates that he’s drawn to Ben and that he cares so much. Ben hates that his body and mind submit so easily to Dante, but he needs it to keep him grounded or else he will lose his mind. It’s all about mind games, but the chemistry between them is undeniable.
Up until the 80 % this was a 3 star read for me. The angst felt a bit over the top .Ben hearing his sister’s voice and seeing blood everywhere started to creep me out at first and then it just became annoying.
But then came a revelation of sorts and Ben hits rock bottom. If Dante and Ben want to have a real chance together they will have to face their demons.
The journey to healing is painful but it’s done in the right way and the result is beautiful .I loved how the author gave these two their HEA.It was the hard but real way.
” I don’t need you, but I want you.”
“I don’t need you, but I want you too”
“Come and get me.”