Title: Becoming Kerry
Author: Lynn Kelling
Publisher: Fantastic Fiction Publishing
Release Date: August 8th 2017
Genre(s): BDSM, Bisexual, Contemporary, Drama, Romance, Transgender
Page Count: 455 pages
Reviewed by: Ana
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5
Kerry Sanderson’s life is falling apart. He’s crushing himself to fit into the boxes others have put him in: dutiful son, good boyfriend, real man. But even the small rebellions he’s fought for himself—moving into a sketchy part of town and becoming an exotic dancer—aren’t giving him the freedom he needs. Ewyn Garrity, a security guard at the gay club where Kerry dances, has found himself in protecting others. Everyone thinks he’s striaght, but Ewyn doesn’t fit into simple boxes, either. When he meets Kerry, he makes a not completely innocent offer of company after work.
Ewyn and Kerry hit it off, each finding something he desperately needs in the other. But when Kerry is forced to confront the pain and self-doubt that keep him crushed in his boxes, he’s afraid that no one, not even Ewyn, will be able to love who he is when he finally, truly becomes Kerry.
(M/M, M/Genderqueer – See publisher’s page for content labels.)
This was such an emotional book. It’s been a while since a book had me stopping every few pages to re-read and think about what I just read. It was full of inspirational and beautiful quotes.
Kerry was an adorable character. He has lived such a painful life, it was a joy to see some happiness come his way. There wasn’t a thing about him that I didn’t like. He was very complex and I loved the way every layer of his being was slowly revealed.
Ewyn is everything I don’t like in a character and yet I loved him. The issue I had with him, and maybe what might make him a great character for most readers, is that he was absolutely perfect. There wasn’t a single flaw in him, and even though under other circumstances it would bother me, I guess that’s just what Kerry needed. Someone who can be supportive and accept him just as he is. He was really sweet with him, their tender moments made me smile every time. They seemed so perfect together.
Another character that got my attention was Kent. He was a perfect bridge between Kerry and the complicated relationship he had with his family. The constant struggle for approval and to make a decision to be as far as possible, but as close as it was safe. That particular struggle seemed very realistic, not only from Kerry’s point of view but also from the little steps his family try to give.
The author has a great ability to break my heart, she took me to places I didn’t want to go and made me feel good about it. It was a heartbreaking experience. I recommend anyone who’s about to start this book to prepare a lot of tissues, they’ll be needed. It was an amazing book, maybe the best I’ve read so far this year. It has a beautiful message of acceptance.