Title: The Struggle Within
Author: Tyler May
Publisher: Tyler May Books
Release Date: April 15, 2017
Genre(s): Gay love, domestic violence, physical/emotional/mental abuse, self harm, attempted suicide, addictive personality, second chance, doctor, lawyer, graphic
Page Count: 435 pages
Reviewed by: Natosha
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5
Through Ryan’s trials, there are three different perspectives: a best friend watching from the outside, a lover desperate to get in, and his own mind.
His struggles were theirs. He just didn’t know it.
A tragic accident changed Dr. Ryan Jacobs’ life and freed him from a past he thought he’d never escape, but with that freedom came the realization: he could escape the man, but would be bound to the torturous battle within his mind. Fighting for control of his thoughts, he lived recklessly in a life of addiction and the next good time. Wearing a mask of deception, and hiding it beautifully behind his playboy ways, he fooled himself into thinking this was the real him, but he couldn’t fool everyone.
Dr. Michael Jonas considered Ryan more than just a friend, he was his family. With the support of his wife, Michael held Ryan’s hand, listened to him cry, and helped him through the hardest events of his life. He could see through the fake smiles and playboy attitude, seeing his best friend for the man he really was. After Michael’s wife had given birth to their first child, Michael vowed never to let pain affect his family again, Ryan included. But Michael carried his own burdens and watching Ryan struggle was harder than he thought. It tore him apart, silently, until there was only one choice. Save his best friend before it was too late.
As a high-powered attorney, Jayson Alexander thrived on easy thrills both in his professional and personal life, but when his heart broke the rules, he had no choice but to break it and run from the pain. Obsessive about controlling his own life, he set goals and rules and tried to ensure his own happiness, but life had a different plan. So he sought out answers and took on a case that would eventually change everything. He was drawn to Ryan from the moment he laid eyes on him. With a magnetic connection he couldn’t deny, he found Ryan irresistible, but he found out quickly the connection was more than physical. Jayson wanted Ryan, but how could he fight the demons Ryan’s mind was creating and stop them from pushing him away?
Ryan built a force field around his heart, vowing after that tragic day, no man would be allowed close enough to ever hurt him again, but with the support of his best friend and the man he loved, could Ryan beat The Struggle Within once and for all?
Due to strong sexual content and language, The Struggle Within is intended for mature readers 18 years of age or over.
Trigger warning: The Struggle Within may contain a subject matter that is sensitive to some readers as it deals with domestic abuse, self-harm, and addictive behavior. The author asks that the reader please take these warnings seriously and requests discretion be advised.
Trigger Warnings: Abuse, mental/physical abuse, self harm, emotional abuse, brutal beatings, attempted suicide, graphic, domestic violence, rape.
I have to say that even though I read the description of this book before I read it, I was still not prepared for how some of the things that Ryan went through really hit close to home and honestly was an eye opener for me on a personal level.
This could not have been an easy book to write in the least. This book more then touches on a subject that most authors skim over when writing about domestic violence because of how horrible the ordeal can be. I applaud Tyler May for writing this book and even more I applaud the f t that Tyler May has incorporated in both the beginning and the end of this book real life people who have put themselves out there by sharing some of their experience with domestic violence.
This book is truly an emotional roller coaster. There are some good times but there is definitely some very difficult times that the main character Ryan had to face. But like this book shows domestic violence does not only affect the person being abused it also affects that remain close to them and then it will also affect future relationships also.
I want to forewarn those that have triggers to this book that you will not want to read it because Tyler May does what I believe is an incredible thing by vividly describing some of what Ryan went through but also by describing vividly the lengths that family and friends will go to in order to help try and save someone in this situation. I also applaud Tyler for writing this book because too many people believe that if it is a same sex couple that it may not be abuse. Also Tyler makes sure to let readers know that just because someone may not physically put their hands on someone, that does not mean it is not abuse if it is only verbal. In some ways the verbal is worse then the physical because the verbal and emotional abuse weaves it way into your head, your heart, and your very soul and it does not go away like bruises will.
I applaud Tyler May all the way around on writing this book because it is a subject that should be brought to light more then it is because this is an easy thing to hide from or turn a blind eye on seeing it happen. No one knows how truly bad it can be or how bad it can get, but Tyler is shedding the light on this subject and I believe that is an incredible thing. Who knows, reading this very emotional read may just help save someone’s life that one of us may love.
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