Title: Believe in the Wish
Author: Christi Snow
Release Date: May 11, 2017
Genre(s): Gay contemporary romance, grief, attempted suicide, depression, new leaf on life
Page Count: 169 pages
Reviewed by: Natosha
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5
I buried my twin sister six months after she found out she had cancer. Her funeral was three months ago. Today is our birthday and it started with delivery of letters from her.
It seems she didn’t trust me to move on after her death. She knows me too well. But how can I go on when my other half is just…gone? That’s not something I can recover from with a snap of my fingers. But I also can’t ignore her instructions even though I’d be perfectly content to cuddle up with my buddy, Johnnie Walker, and call it a year.
She has a list of things for me to do and there are rules attached.
There’s one major problem besides the fact it’s been three months since I left the house. I have to do all these things with her jerk of an ex, Hawk Simmons. He abandoned her shortly after she found out she was sick. If that wasn’t enough to make this a really bad idea, the fact that he makes an appearance in all my nighttime fantasies probably does.
I don’t think I can do this, but I owe it to my sister’s memory to try.
What an amazing story about learning to live again after feeling like your world was ripped away f on you by illness.
Christi Snow had to have put a piece of herself into this book. It was an extremely emotional read that left me feeling the pain of not only one of the lead characters but both of them. Both Ethan and Hawk know what the grief of loss and betrayal feels like. They both know how it will rip your world apart and how it will change you as an individual on a personal level. This story felt like it was personal to Christi in the aspect that as a reader I could feel how this book must have affected her and how she had to of given a part of herself when writing this book. With the way this book was written and all of the emotions that was put into it, there is just no possible way in my opinion that Christi could have written such an incredible story like this without putting a piece of herself in it. Personally I believe that is what made this book so incredible.
Hawk has been dealing with his grief for longer then Ethan but that grief is no less than Ethan’s. I honestly believe that in a way, Hawk trying to help Ethan with his twin sister, Emma, death it brought his grief and the feelings of betrayal by his former partner Craig back tenfold.
Ethan’s pain was so real and debilitating that it made it hard for him to breathe much less move on with life. I honestly believe without Hawk coming back into his life when he did as a friend that Ethan would have given up. Being a twin, there is a connection stronger then others but with Ethan and Emma that connection and love and friendship was even more strong due to how close hey were. Or at least how close Ethan thought they was.
As Ethan and Hawk work together to fulfill Emma’s will, Ethan goes from hating Hawk to wanting Hawk to hating himself for how he feels and the betrayal he feels he is committing to his sister.
This book touches on grief, thoughts of suicide, attempted suicide, and learning to live and love again. Especially love for ones self. I believe Christi Snow did an amazingly, incredible job on this book. It is what I would describe as a book about learning to live and love again and about how to move on from death. This is definitely a book I would place on a “read immediately” list. It is that good. I look forward to more books by Christi Snow in the future. I cannot wait to see what she will come up with next.
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