Shadows On My Soul (Natosha’s Review)

Title:Shadows On My Soul
Author:Leigh Jarrett
Publisher: Steambath Press
Release Date: June 12, 2017
Genre(s): M/M Contemporary
Page Count: 329 pages
Reviewed by: Natosha
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5

Beyond the shadows, his love held true for only one man

Derek Lawrence is a player. There is no other way to phrase it. He’s been unstoppable since coming out in high school. Guy after guy, conquest after conquest. He isn’t looking for any kind of commitment from anyone. His life is perfect the way it is.

Except for one aspect. Derek has been in love with his best friend and business partner, Justin Leary, since the first day he set eyes on him over twenty years ago.

When an implication surfaces that Justin’s feelings for Derek might run far deeper than friendship, he considers approaching Justin about it. But before he can, one targeted act of violence followed by the aftermath of violation, challenges the depth of Derek’s love for Justin.

Trigger Warnings: This book may have some triggers to rape, self harm, and attempted suicide. So proceed with caution.

This is truly a heartbreaking story. The sad fact though is it is a story that I am sure sadly many have had to live through. And I am sure that some have had the same line of thoughts about suicide as one of the main characters in this story did that has been in the same horrible situation as he was.

This book broke my heart on so many different levels. I do not want to get into too many situations in this book because it will give away a big part of this story but the part that I will get into is the fact that Justin and Derek have lived each other most of their lives. But what is so heartbreaking about that is that neither man found the courage to tell the other, even though everyone around them knew that they did.

These two men have let the love and the secret of loving one another without having the courage to tell the other almost rip them apart. They have been best friends and inseparable since they met but both are afraid of losing the other. So they keep their secret to themselves and torment themselves because of it. This one secret is enough to almost destroy both of them. Add to the fact that even though they are best friends, they keep other aspects of their lives from each other and it is also causing tension between them and you have a major recipe for disaster.

Can Derek and Justin finally get their acts together enough to be completely open and honest with each other or will they both continue to destroy the other until the damage is too much to come back from?

This read as I said was heartbreaking on so many different levels. I can only imagine how hard to write a story like this was. It is definitely a book that even though there is some horrible traumatic things that happen, there is still that hope that is in there for maybe something good on the other side. Leigh Jarrett definitely did a wonderful job in writing this book. Like I said, no doubt it had to be difficult to write. I look forward to more from Leigh in the future.

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Galley copy of Shadows On My Soul provided by Steambath Press in exchange of an honest review.


Hello, I am an avid reader of male/male books. I do not have a favorite genre when it comes to male/male books because I love all of them from romance, dark reads, paranormal, shifter, threesome, whatever I see that catches my eye at the time.

I read books about rock stars, CEOs, military, cops, and just the original plain old good boy types of books.

Basically when it comes to a book, I read whatever I am in the mood for at the time. So my tastes varies from day to day and sometimes even hour to hour.

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