Title: Becoming Kerry
Author: Lynn Kelling
Publisher: Fantastic Fiction Publishing
Release Date: August 8, 2017
Genre(s): Gay Contemporary Romance, Genderqueer
Page Count: 455 pages
Reviewed by: Natosha
Heat Level: 3.5 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5
Kerry Sanderson’s life is falling apart. He’s crushing himself to fit into the boxes others have put him in: dutiful son, good boyfriend, real man. But even the small rebellions he’s fought for himself—moving into a sketchy part of town and becoming an exotic dancer—aren’t giving him the freedom he needs. Ewyn Garrity, a security guard at the gay club where Kerry dances, has found himself in protecting others. Everyone thinks he’s striaght, but Ewyn doesn’t fit into simple boxes, either. When he meets Kerry, he makes a not completely innocent offer of company after work.
Ewyn and Kerry hit it off, each finding something he desperately needs in the other. But when Kerry is forced to confront the pain and self-doubt that keep him crushed in his boxes, he’s afraid that no one, not even Ewyn, will be able to love who he is when he finally, truly becomes Kerry.
Novel (M/M, M/Genderqueer – See publisher’s page for content labels.)
Sometimes life is not fair. We lose those closest to us that we love and it instills fears in us. That fear can manifest and make us want to hide. Hide from the world. Hide from the ones we love. Hide from ourselves.
Then there are times that same loss gives us strength to no longer hide from anyone including ourselves.
Kerry has always hid who he truly is and was ashamed of the things that he wanted for himself. Things from his childhood and even the present has made him feel that way. Kerry meets an amazing man that makes Kerry feel safe to explore every avenue of the life that he wants to lead. Ewyn gives him the strength and support to allow himself to be the person he truly is and that is genderqueer.
Kerry has never felt like just a man or a woman but a bit of both and with Ewyn’s help he is able to grasp that part of himself and blossom into the person he is meant to be.
With every change that Ewyn and Kerry both go through more changes happen that are not under their control. Both have to learn to let go of the past and look to the future in order for both of them to find their happiness.
This was a great read. I dare say an inspiring read. The things that both of these men go through is heartbreaking but at the same time they use that heartbreak to help them each create something better, more pure. This book does have some trigger points that some should be aware of such as rape, gay bashing, and violence. So be aware on those points. I truly believe that Lynn Kelling did an excellent job on this book and others will believe the same.