Just Here for the Pain (Ana’s Review)

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Title: Just Here for the Pain (The Underdogs #2)
Author: K.A. Merikan
Publisher: Self-Published
Release Date: February 4th 2018
Genre(s): Contemporary, BDSM
Page Count: 240 pages
Reviewed by: Ana
Heat Level: 4 flames out of 5
Rating: 4 stars out of 5

—. Whips and chains – not optional .—

Sid. Drummer for The Underdogs. Secretly yearning for pain and submission.
Asher. AKA Stan. Stalker. More than meets the eye.

It’s hard to find good hookups while on tour. Sid wants pain, humiliation, and the kind of sex that isn’t easy to get from one-night stands. So for now, he’s given up, settled for an online Dom to get his rocks off, and focused on his band instead. The Underdogs are getting increasingly popular, but there is one fan who has followed Sid since before he even joined the band, and he’s driving Sid mad! Rich, spoiled hipster brat looking for the bad boy experience. If he knew what Sid was really into, he would run for the hills.

Asher is convinced that Sid is The One, his One True Love, his endgame. Years ago, Asher lost his virginity to Sid, and from that moment on, he knew it was meant to be. They had a spark, that honest connection that couldn’t be faked. The members of Sid’s band call him a stalker, but all he wants is to offer Sid his love. When Sid finally chokes out what he wants, Asher is more than ready to unleash it on him.

But the last time Sid was out as gay and submissive, he got badly burnt when his former band kicked him out, and the doors to many opportunities slammed in his face.
Asher wants the whole world to know that he’s dating Sid. Problem is, Sid would much rather keep the relationship as pain-with-benefits.

Themes: rock band, alternative lifestyles, tattoos, BDSM, commitment, family issues, coming out, life on tour, friends with benefits become something more, first love , stalking, fanboy
Genre: Contemporary M/M Rocker Romance
Heat level: Scorching hot, explicit BDSM scenes
Length: ~90,000 words (Can be read as standalone, HEA)

This was a great read. It felt very different from the previous book, maybe all those BDSM scenes had something to do with that, but it was really good. Although I’ll admit I didn’t liked it as much as Manic Pixie Dream Boy.

I’m really surprised by the emotions I felt from the book. I was expecting to love Sid and feel indifferent towards Asher, but it was almost the opposite. I end up loving Asher so much and feel so mad at Sid all the time. I was so frustrated with him, Asher had an enormous patience, I’m sure I wouldn’t have.

The plot was great, there were some twist that I didn’t see coming, which were particularly nice, mostly related to Sid’s backstory. It was very interesting. It felt a bit slow pace and it was a little bit of an issue sometimes, but in general I liked it. We get to know new characters that were great.

The BDSM scenes were amazing, they were really intense. I really loved them. I was really interested on seeing what Asher think about it and if it wasn’t something only to keep Sid close. Those scenes were the moments when I felt they had the strongest connection. I was a little underwhelmed by the chemistry between Sid and Asher, most of the time, but when they shared a BDSM scenes, everything was perfect. I believe one of the reason why I had such trouble getting in touch with Sid’s emotions at times, might had something to do with the fact that Sid construct this big barrier to keep his feelings inside and he struggle a lot to make things different. It wasn’t an easy task for him and maybe that’s what translate as an unaffectionate person that was troublesome for me. I try to understand him, but I could so much easily feel the pain Asher was feeling and that make me resent Sid a little bit.

The parts I enjoyed the most were the brief moments when the whole band, Dawn and Lolly included, were together. But at times they felt bittersweet because as much as I loved the all, their attitudes sometimes were a little hurtful. I loved them all and I’m enjoying this series so much. This book has a little more angst and less band scenes, but those BDSM scenes made up for anything I didn’t liked about it. Overall it was a great book.

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Galley copy of Just Here for the Pain provided by K.A. Merikan in exchange of an honest review.


I love to read M/M books. I’m still doing a lot of catching up with some series and getting to know some authors. I love to read stories with dark themes, a lot of angst and complex characters. I’ve always been interested on how mental illness is portray in books, so I would probably read any book with that subject.

Here are some of my favorite books


Strain Violence Vegets Arctic Absolution Dark Soul The dreams you made in the Dirt
Fog Bought Caged Jaye Evenfall The Invasion of Tork

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