If We Could Go Back (Kirstin’s Review)

Title: If We Could Go Back
Author: Cara Dee
Publisher: Cara Dee
Release Date: April 29th, 2019
Genre(s): Romance
Page Count: 351
Reviewed by: Kirstin
Heat Level: 3.5 flames out of 5
Rating: 5+ stars out of 5
A Gay Book Reviews 5+ star read!

My sister asked me if I could stand the sight my own reflection, if I’d caused enough damage yet, but I didn’t see myself when I looked into the mirror. I saw Kieran standing behind me, pressing a kiss to my shoulder while he undid my belt. I saw everything I wanted that I couldn’t have. Not unless I was prepared to hurt everyone around me.

Kieran was in a similar situation.

Were we monsters or men? Were they one and the same? Did we give a flying f—hell. We did care. Just not enough to stop, not enough to walk away, and I knew we constantly asked ourselves the same question because of it. If we could go back to when we met on the train…if we could erase the deceit, erase our first hello…would we?

First of all, I loved this story of hope and faith and love and second chances and heartbreak. But, I will provide a caveat…this probably isn’t the book for everyone. Cara Dee has become one of my must read, one click authors, so I didn’t even read the blurb before I delved right in. I’m not one for books with cheating. Honestly, that was a major part of this story. If you can get past that, this book is superbly written and angst filled and worth every ounce of guilt that the MC’s had.

This is one of those books that makes you realize your life will ever be changed when you reach the last page. I couldn’t have predicted how much impact the words on the page had on me. It was beautiful. I felt the emotions run through Kieran and Bennett. I felt the longing, the tenderness, the passion, the regret, and the heartbreak.

So many really tough subjects were brought to the surface in this story and each was met with dialogue of caring and understanding and support. I can’t say enough about the brilliant writing that went into creating this story and the significant emotions that were felt. Cara Dee is generous with giving her characters depth and imperfect lives and shaping them into heroes and people you’d be glad to call family.

This is one book that will go on my top 5 for this year, without question.

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Reading has become such a huge part of my life as an adult. I love the escape, but I also try to take something from each story for myself. I am a lover of words. I love dialogue. I love a slow burn and a happy ever after. Favorite Authors: Garrett Leigh, Amy Lane, Mary Calmes, Lane Hayes, T.J. Klune, Roan Parrish, N.R. Walker, Cara Dee, Anyta Sunday
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