The Hate You Drink (Tosha’s Review)

Title: The Hate You Drink
Author: N.R. Walker
Publisher: Self publishing
Release Date: May 23, 2019
Genre(s): Gay dark romance
Page Count: 295 pages
Reviewed by: Tosha
Heat Level: 3 flames out of 5
Rating: 5 stars out of 5


Erik Keston, son of the Keston Real Estate empire, knows what it takes to be successful. Despite his inherent wealth, he holds his own. He works hard, he’s grounded, he’s brilliant. He’s also secretly in love with his best friend.

Monroe Wellman lost his parents three years ago and never grieved, never recovered. Inheriting the family company and wealth means nothing, and his spiral of self-destruction is widespread and spectacular. Dubbed Sydney’s bad boy, he spends more days drunk than sober, and the only person who’s stuck by him through it all is his best mate.

But when Monroe hits rock bottom, Erik gives him an ultimatum, and his entire world comes to a grinding halt. It’s not until the haze lifts that Monroe can truly see what he’s been searching for was never in the bottom of a bottle. It’s been by his side all along.

An 80,000-word friends-to-lovers story about fighting the demons within and trusting in the love that takes its place.

“Because when all you drink is hate, that’s all there is inside you.”

This book… this book is such a heartbreakingly good read. It is emotional and heartbreaking in some ways and then in others there is so much love and strength that it just takes your breath away. Sadly so many people go through what one of the main characters went through. Addiction is not an easy thing to fight. Being an alcoholic is not easy to live with but it is possible to work each day to not continue to be one. It is not something that will magically disappear, it is a disease that one will have to deal with for the rest of their lives but their is a way to live with it. The main character in this book did not have it easy when dealing with this addiction. It was down right awful for him but he was able to sober up and with the help and friends and family he was able to stay that way.

Monroe has a major problem. He does not realize it but his addiction has taken over every part of his life. His best friend knows that his drinking is out of control and no matter what Erik does, nothing is getting through To Monroe. Erik has been in love with Monroe since they first met. It is killing him to watch not only his best friend but the man that he loves spiral so far out of control. Erik knows that if something does not change then Monroe is either going to end up dead or he is going to end up killing someone and neither option is acceptable to Erik.

When Monroe spirals even more Erik begs his mom to tell him how to help Monroe. His mom knows that Erik cannot do it, that the help that Monroe needs is more then any of them can offer. So his mom calls in re enforcements. That is where Saul comes in. Saul is used to helping people with addiction and from what he learns of Monroe, Saul knows that Monroe is is desperate need of help.

The question is will Monroe accept the help that is being offered to him? In order for someone to overcome this addiction, they have to want to do so. Will Monroe stick with the help that is being offered to him? How will he handle being sober and the trauma that caused him to turn to alcohol in the first place? Will Monroe realize that his best friend is in love with him and if so will the feelings be returned?

This was such a good read. You will definitely need a box of tissues while reading this book but I will say that there will be a happy ending, you just have to get through everything else to get to they happy ending and it will not always be nice. N.R. Walker did an incredible job on this book. I really enjoyed this read. I look forward to more books in the future.

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Galley copy of The Hate You Drink provided by N.R. Walker in exchange of an honest review.


Hello, I am an avid reader of male/male books. I do not have a favorite genre when it comes to male/male books because I love all of them from romance, dark reads, paranormal, shifter, threesome, whatever I see that catches my eye at the time. I read books about rock stars, CEOs, military, cops, and just the original plain old good boy types of books. Basically when it comes to a book, I read whatever I am in the mood for at the time. So my tastes varies from day to day and sometimes even hour to hour.
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