In the Absence of Light

in the absence of light
Title: In the Absence of Light
Author: Adrienne Wilder
Publisher: Self Published
Release Date: March 25, 2015
Genre(s): Contemporary/Disability
Page Count: 261
Reviewed by: Gigi
Heat Level: 5 flames out of 5
Rating: 5+ stars out of 5
A Gay Book Reviews 5+ star read!

For years Grant Kessler has smuggled goods from one end of the world to the next. When business turns in a direction Grant isn’t willing to follow he decides to retire and by all appearances he settles down in a nowhere town called Durstrand. But his real plan is to wait a few years and let the FBI lose interest, then move on to the distant coastal life he’s always dreamed of.

Severely autistic, Morgan cannot look people in the eye, tell left from right, and has uncontrolled tics. Yet he’s beaten every obstacle life has thrown his way. And when Grant Kessler moves into town Morgan isn’t a bit shy in letting the man know how much he wants him.

While the attraction is mutual, Grant pushes Morgan away. Like the rest of the world he can’t see past Morgan’s odd behaviors

Then Morgan shows Grant how light lets you see but it also leaves you blind. And once Grant opens his eyes, he loses his heart to the beautiful enigma of a man who changes the course of his life.


This book taught me a very valuable lesson: When EVERYONE and their uncle tells you to “READ THIS FUCKING BOOK,” you do it. Put down everything else and read. Because, honestly? If I’d have read this book in the middle of 2015, my top 10 list for 2015 would have been different.

I’m not quite sure what I can say about In the Absence of Light that hasn’t already been said. I loved how fiercely Grant loved Morgan. I loved Morgan’s dry humor and how he saw the world. I loved the raunchy, dirty, frantic sex. I loved the roller-coaster-ride mystery of Grant’s involvement with the FBI and his relationship with chameleon Jeff. I loved the busybody townspeople. I loved how Adrienne Wilder wrapped everything up at the end and gave everyone a ridiculously mushy HEA.

Like the fragments of light he chased, he mapped my features with his touch.

“There will never be anyone like you, Morgan.”

He closed his eyes for a moment.

“Never, not in a million years or a million lifetimes, will there be anyone else who has what I want.”

This is one of the most powerful, beautiful books I have ever read. A must-read. I can’t recommend it highly enough.

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1 comment

  • I totally agree with you…I Loved This Book!!! Can’t wait for Jeff’s story. I’ve also heard great things about Complementary Colors, but haven’t had the chance to read it yet.


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